And so it came to pass that as of this day, the EP that I have been toiling over is officially the worst pile of crap ever conceived!!! Pretty dramatic, huh? Well about that…
There are several stages that one must pass through in order to give birth to a piece of art. These levels may vary from person to person, yet some of them are all too familiar to us. I landed face first in the cesspool of self-doubt today…and this pool was not shallow! You work hard and things are rolling along quite nicely…you’re proud, you’re feeling good about what you’re creating, and suddenly out of nowhere you say…wait, is that song really as good as you think it is? Uh oh, maybe it’s not…maybe I should’ve picked a different song to record. Maybe I shouldn’t record at all…I mean…who would even care!?
These thoughts, obviously, are completely horrible and do NOTHING to help move the creative process forward…not to mention the beating it gives your heart and spirit. A good way to approach this stage of the creative process is to immediately recognize it, face it head on, and do everything in your power move past it. Maybe affirmations work for you…maybe or conversations in a mirror help…maybe distracting yourself altogether makes it better. Regardless of the modality used, moving past those doubts is paramount. Remember why you are creating in the first place. Think of how many artistic people never finish their projects because they succumb to their own negative inner dialogue. Don’t let that happen to you, and I sure won’t happen to me.
I managed to work through this stage today and not lose too much time beating myself up. One thing that didn’t make it through the day was the guitar parts that I recorded. At first I was pretty bummed, because the parts I wrote that I thought would work…didn’t. That’s actually ok, because after hearing the guitar line in context of the song it was easy to hear why it didn’t work and I was able to write new parts make the song better…win, win!
I certainly don’t shoo The Muse when she shows up, and sometimes she comes around when I’ve got stuff to do…like this EP I’m working on!
I woke up the other day with something that I thought would be a pretty cool idea…another avenue to explore musically. I’m charged up…I’m excited…ready to jump in with both feet and wrap myself up in this new path of sonic exploration. And then it hits me…dude, you’re in the middle of a project and you HAVE to finish it or it will never be finished. And it’s true. Sure the new path is shiny and beautiful and is so enticing, but so many times in the past I’ve followed these new inspirations and have let the work I’m currently involved in fall by the wayside.
The good thing is that I recognized it and headed my thinking off at the pass. Promises to yourself should be kept and I’ve baked in a bit of leniency for myself in case life gets weird. Losing focus and letting the temptation of a new idea win over my attention will only lead to another project I’ve let go of. I just can’t do that to myself. So Miss Muse (I assume she’s not married)…thank you for the new idea, but you’ll have to chill for a while I finish up the OTHER idea you gave me. Off to do some mixing…
Recently I did some upgrading to the studio…extra RAM, another audio interface that works in tandem with my existing interface, new software, etc. I’ve been pretty stoked to get everything up and running since my upgrades are supposed to make my recording workflow easier and more efficient…supposed to.
Getting my audio interfaces to talk to each other has been a real pain in me arse. It still isn’t working the way I want it to and sadly, its getting in the way of my productivity. Couple that with some unexpected life events, and I’ve lost a good chunk of studio time as of late. I’m still on track with what I have planned, but I am starting to feel a bit of self-imposed pressure…not good. During the upgrading process, one of my song files became corrupted and I had to rebuild everything from scratch. I lost some acoustic guitar parts that I had recorded, but luckily I was able to recreate the progress without ‘too’ much effort.
It’s weird how a bunch of little things tend to pile up and turn into a big thing…that’s kinda where I’m at mentally. I KNOW that these are little things and that a simple change in perspective will fix what’s going on in my head. And that’s what I’ll do…take a deep breath, know that everything is as it should be, and make some damn music!!! 🙂